New life...about friends

How would my life be after this?? Will it similar with wat i hav gone through in matric?? Will i have a friends or two as close as kah chiin and huiru?? or zhi chin?? or even suehan?? I know i should not think off these at this time but it really worried me when i think off this, everyone seems has their own group of friends and I'm like very have to mix in. Maybe is my own problem in not opening my mouth and talk more. But i feel weird to stay in a group of friend which all of them is so close and i m not that close with them...But we cant predict this on this time, because friendship take times to build, i'm quite clear with this statement.


Now, when i m thinking off FRIENDS, my mind keep coming out those image with all my friends, suehan, kahchiin, huiru.........these three very important people in my life...I MISS YOU ALL~~~ and all those friends that are close to me, zhi chin, jj, yuet yang, yun yin, shock hong, phiak kim, ming hui, chenm ming, yilin....and many many more(dun blame me if i forget you><)...which i wil constantly think off them and start to rethink what we have done together before...I really miss you guys...i dunno how to descride out my feelind when i miss you all, but it is not a kind of nice and confortable feeling...I really hope that we can still stay together, move on our future life together but it is almost impossible...everytime this statement pop out in my mind, i cant control myself to be sad...T.T

Tomorrow, my new schooling day starts, this would be totally different from what i had experience before. I am quite worried of the syllabus and ways of lecturer teaching here. But, you always wan me to have confident, i know it, so i m actually trying to calm myself down and try to get rid of this kind of feeling, but it just stay tightly with me which makes me feel like a bit suffering. NO WAY~~ i must really get rid of it.Haiz...still no point telling myself this as it do not really reduce my fear. Thanks to you that always give me energy and confident!! I dun want to dissapoint you too~ so i will really try my best to do well no matter in what.

What i m writing here, i dun think anyone wil come and read it...so mayb months or years later, you will see this. Sorry... though cannot said this word, but i have to type it here because i really feel so sorry to you sometimes, which i cant tell you to prevent myself from any punishment but i m writing here"sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry" for making you worry, making you confuse, trouble you, hurt you and al kinds of reasons................then when you see my post, you can punish me d.~~~ OH NO......RUN~~~