Cant but pretend

I cant make myself believe, but i hav to.
I cant make myself accept, but i hav to.
I cant make myself stop thinking, but i hav to.
I said i brought strength back, but i hav not enough.
I said i can overcome it, but i hav insufficient energy.
I jz told myself that i m all new, but my mind havent refresh.

What i can do now, is listen...
Listen to ppl around me...
They said it is not worth...
They said it is impossible...
They said...a lot...

Pretend to sleep, soon you will fall asleep.
Pretend to be professional, soon you wil look professional.
Pretend to be talkative, soon you will become noisy.
Pretend to smile always, soon you will always smile.
Pretend to love ppl around you, soon you will feel that there is no one around the world that your dislike.
Pretend to be steady, because steady is a fundamental skill for your to solve every problem

I believe in everything i listen now, ppl around me might say different things but i believe them all.
I thought i bring back a lot of strength from home but actually i still need more.
I thought it is ok to get back my view but sometimes views just bring back my sadness...

But it is ok... i stil love myself =) i stil survive =)