Language

Just realised that
when we are still a kid
we do not need this "language" things
for us to communicate well.

But for our age now
we really need this "language"
so that we can have
a closer relationship
between everyone
included families and friends.

For friends
i do not have any example to give
because
i do not remember any special evident
or any scene
or any normal activities
for me to stay close with friends
when i m still a kid.

But for family
i can clearly remembered that
we stay really close with two
big brother cousins
when we are young.

They are two cousins
that we do not have much chance to meet
we only get to meet them once in a blue moon
mayb once per four five years
or even more
i can said that
till now i havent got the chance
to meet them more than ten times

They are two cousins
that do not know our language
they only speak english
as they do not stay in malaysia
they do not know any malay or chinese.

They are two cousins
that is older than us
when we havent start our school
they are already teenagers in secondary school

But i do remember that
when we are kids
we do not know how to speak english
they do not how to speak chinese
but with different language
we can communicate very well
and stay very close
for the entire period when they are back in malaysia.
I miss those time
when we keep sticking to them
asking them to carry us al around
don't know using wat body language
so that they can understand.
it feels good to have this two cousins

For now, we are still stucking halfway using english to communicate
i still feel close to them
and i can still feel the bond between us
but there is also some awkward time
when i know what i wanted to share with them so much
but i do not know how to express it out fully
or when there are a group of cousins talking together
and i just know how to listen and to laugh
which trying to keep those things
i wanted to say out
back to myself
to prevent stucking half way when i m speaking
that doesn't only feel awkward
it feels wasted as well.

Just for now
have to bare with it
and improve my speaking skill la =)