talk your way to the top

this is the book that i read recently, but it has been month since i first read it and till now i m still on the first 40 pages. haha~ how slow am i....

today i m here to express my feeling on talking~ not only face to face but through the net, skype and facebook.
First of all, i wanted to say that it is so convenient for us that we can talk and see others face through the net... yesterday i get to talk to my mom and my little sister in the skype and i feel so fulfill with their laugh and conversation especially when both of them argue in front of the laptop. And i realise i really miss them a lot. I can talk so naturally with them although my roommate is in my room. sorry for disturbing them when i m talking...i try to control my voice, but it is just too excited and i cant lower my voice down sometimes. I saw their face although they are really BLUR in front of the laptop. They are so active even in front of the webcam, they are so real and so approachable...i feel that they are so close to me...though we are in at least few miles of distance away. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH~ they always make me natural and comfortable.

Second, i would like to say that i m a bit weak in communicating with friends... yeah, i admit it, i m weak in that! Especially for those friends that are sad, no mood, angry or emo... I m scare when i realise someone face turning black, i really how to start the conversation with them... I really feel very weird when i trying to talk something to get out of that awkward feeling but i always fail~ Dunno why... because i m just too poor in 安慰-ing ppl~ i know this is what i hav to learn, but i always fail~ i never get ppl feel better when i talk...i never make ppl feel relief when i start to talk~

what i hope is i can talk normall everyday which my friends around stay happy everyday...which i know it is always impossible. which when someone start to feel uneasy they wont come and find me and make me feel that i m just useless~ so sorry that i cant do anything. but actually i believe that i m always a good listener which i hav both very effective ears. but i dun have successful mouth.~

So the book, talk your way to the top, the first things i get from the first 40 pages said that, we should first know how to communicate to ourselves before we get to communicate well with others~ so i m trying, by  talking to myself=P though it really weird! haha